I am 57 this life & have no one yet

[WeRaliens]

The thing about me is.....I have read too many books. Of course, before I read books, I still wasn't girlfriend material.
I chose this life, it seems, to bond to the voices in my head. Humans were way too harsh, and the voices were kind and gentle. Compassionate they were. It is true that there are parallel realities and I really experienced them as a child. I was beaten for talking about the voices and the rain that I saw. I wished for rain once, and there it was! A sheet of rain about 2 foot by 3 foot was in front of me. Then it disappeared. I was called a liar by my mother. She called me a liar about everything I said.
When I was about 23 to 26 years old, a voice told me to go talk to a man walking down the street. Through him I found a book called "Living the Infinite Way" by Joel Goldsmith. This book said that we are all God. What else vibrates us?
Then I found Edgar Cayce, Seth, and a huge amount of other books about healers. Seth is still my favorite. And that book on water crystals! That Japanese man has shown all of us how our thinking effects our bodies. Of course, this is the same thing that Edgar Cayce and Seth teach in their books.
I wanted to learn how to heal myself, so I started. The first time, my legs became really hot. My flu symptoms disappeared about half way. The next time, I just told myself that "I feel good". My symptoms went away.
At a landscaping job I saw a co worker fall down in pain. I asked him if he wanted a doctor. He said nothing, but I walked to him and knelt down. I touched him and told him to relax. I had felt a whole lot of energy at seeing his pain, and now he was standing up not in pain anymore.
My son was 5 at the time. Someone had yelled in his ear and he couldn't stop crying. I wished for help for about 5 minutes. Then I felt a small bit of energy leave my abdomen and then go his way. His crying stopped.
I had a wart on my hand once. I decided to imagine that my skin was flat. At the end of the day the wart was gone.
I had read a book about healers somewhere in this time frame; specifically a man that was in a war. He had stepped on a stake of some kind that went up through his foot and ankle. He took the stake out and held his ankle. The reporter that saw this wrote that he then saw the foot and ankle heal up really fast. Now who doesn't want to learn that?!!!!
I named my son Laughing.
I became really depressed over the years because I could find no one to share with. I wanted to jump up and down with someone every time that I felt a healing, but no one showed up. Whoever those voices were that talked to me as a child should have helped me to find someone. They must have been aliens, because if a spirit that talked to me had been in a human's body before, then they would have understood my lonliness.
I wanted to teach everyone everywhere that they are magnificent, powerful beings of light that live forever, that can heal themselves in a fast way. No one understood. And since I was kept away from people as a child, I did not know how to talk like everybody else.